Never doubt your own heart and gut, follow it!
This was the sentence I wrote to one of my friends recently and it is the strongest lesson I obtained in the course of the last year when I decided to start therapy. And so - this blog is also the direct consequence of trying to follow that inner flow, the spiritual arrow that sometimes occurs within me and shows me where to go and what to do.
A lot of things have happened in the last years but particularly good things have always started to happen when I decided to hear the call of my heart and follow it. Suddenly the world would become clear and I would know what to do and where to go. Admittedly, there have been more times when I was confused, but once I had the courage to start letting the light shine through, everything became brighter and helped me to open up to things I've never imagined would happen or I would be capable of.
In the course of the last seven years, I left my home country for another country to seek a better life. At home I felt like my working conditions have been oppressing me and the entire climate in the society was wrong. Most of the people who served as leaders (either in the field of politics or business, or as opinion leaders) at that time I felt belonged to prison. I could not stand the stealing and the political censorship that was going on in our country, I felt my working conditions were unacceptable. At the same time I feared that I was just too weak to take it all and I that I was fleeing. But really, nothing seemed worth to stay and not to try another profession (I used to be a journalist and the miserable pay, the forced freelancing, the horrible feeling of vulnerability before your potential prosecutors who didn't like what you wrote, particularly because I covered business, but at the same time the immense continuous pressure from my bosses to uncover scandals to make the ratings go up, made me feel like throwing up all the time) and in a country which seemed to have it all - Germany. So I decided to take a shot - dared to ask a company for a sponsorship for my studies and succeeded. Three and half years later I am sitting in an engineering office in the environmental sector. Things have become progressively better, but of course not ideal. Now that I have the privilege to have a secure job in another country, the opportunities have offered themselves to learn about cultural differences, to understand what it means to be a woman in a man's world, to be an expat and also to start my spiritual journey anew.
This year I am also starting my new education. After a year of visiting a Barbara Ann Brennan therapist, I decided to do something on my own as well. So I am starting the first year of the PsychoEnergetics education, which was developed by former Brennan Educational Programme teachers and is based on the same principles mixed with some other influences, such as body psychotherapy. I am sure a lot will be happening this year and I would like to share it all. Particularly my very private, often vulnerable self growth realizations that I made through therapy. Because I think it is important to give the message that working on yourself can move mountains and to give some examples what it actually means when you start diving in the vast pool of subconsciousness, bringing out the shadows into the light.
All in all I am looking forward to share and am welcoming every thought and comment you guys are willing to post.
To happiness, growth and sharing.
Yours,
S
This was the sentence I wrote to one of my friends recently and it is the strongest lesson I obtained in the course of the last year when I decided to start therapy. And so - this blog is also the direct consequence of trying to follow that inner flow, the spiritual arrow that sometimes occurs within me and shows me where to go and what to do.
A lot of things have happened in the last years but particularly good things have always started to happen when I decided to hear the call of my heart and follow it. Suddenly the world would become clear and I would know what to do and where to go. Admittedly, there have been more times when I was confused, but once I had the courage to start letting the light shine through, everything became brighter and helped me to open up to things I've never imagined would happen or I would be capable of.
In the course of the last seven years, I left my home country for another country to seek a better life. At home I felt like my working conditions have been oppressing me and the entire climate in the society was wrong. Most of the people who served as leaders (either in the field of politics or business, or as opinion leaders) at that time I felt belonged to prison. I could not stand the stealing and the political censorship that was going on in our country, I felt my working conditions were unacceptable. At the same time I feared that I was just too weak to take it all and I that I was fleeing. But really, nothing seemed worth to stay and not to try another profession (I used to be a journalist and the miserable pay, the forced freelancing, the horrible feeling of vulnerability before your potential prosecutors who didn't like what you wrote, particularly because I covered business, but at the same time the immense continuous pressure from my bosses to uncover scandals to make the ratings go up, made me feel like throwing up all the time) and in a country which seemed to have it all - Germany. So I decided to take a shot - dared to ask a company for a sponsorship for my studies and succeeded. Three and half years later I am sitting in an engineering office in the environmental sector. Things have become progressively better, but of course not ideal. Now that I have the privilege to have a secure job in another country, the opportunities have offered themselves to learn about cultural differences, to understand what it means to be a woman in a man's world, to be an expat and also to start my spiritual journey anew.
This year I am also starting my new education. After a year of visiting a Barbara Ann Brennan therapist, I decided to do something on my own as well. So I am starting the first year of the PsychoEnergetics education, which was developed by former Brennan Educational Programme teachers and is based on the same principles mixed with some other influences, such as body psychotherapy. I am sure a lot will be happening this year and I would like to share it all. Particularly my very private, often vulnerable self growth realizations that I made through therapy. Because I think it is important to give the message that working on yourself can move mountains and to give some examples what it actually means when you start diving in the vast pool of subconsciousness, bringing out the shadows into the light.
All in all I am looking forward to share and am welcoming every thought and comment you guys are willing to post.
To happiness, growth and sharing.
Yours,
S
